Dear Sweet Baby

Dear future baby,

I already love you so much. I am excited to hold you and snuggle you and kiss you and spend every waking moment with you. Until you are here on this earth with me, my heart isn't complete. There's a chunk that has your name on it, that will fit in like a puzzle piece the day you are born. Right now your daddy and I are preparing our world for you, a world that is very chaotic right now. A world that we would maneuver and adjust to fit you, but isn't quite designed for you. These blueprints don't have a space for you yet.

I don't feel like you are a distant creature that is unknown and mysterious that will present itself to us one day. No, not at all. I feel like I already know you. I do know you. I know who you are and I miss you like your oldest friend or your lost teddy bear. I can't wait to study every part of you and spend a whole week staring at your fingers, then the next week your eyes, and playing the game of 'who gave you what'.

I know you are going to awe everyone. You are going to be sweet and beautiful and charming and patient and funny. You will bring a joy and a glow to this house we didn't even know was possible. A little something extra. A lot something extra. I know this because I already know you in my heart. No one can feel this but me. No one knows you but me. Your mama.

I wish you were here.